Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Picture shot: bus # 43 - Few tears for tons of smiles

10:07 A.M. She is running to the elevator...but of course it leaves before she manages to open the door. Takes the stairs, rushes to the bus station and doors of the bus close in front of her nose....again!!! It is the same damn 43 bus, coming from 20 to 20 minutes and going to Manastur. She tries so hard to change the hour so the people won't be the same...with the same sad faces, saying nothing. A dead bus. Weather was absolutely lovely, sun was shining...so she is patiently waiting the next bus. 20 minutes from a lifetimes seem nothing to her now, it is perfect time to think of why she hasn't smiled in days and why everything seems to be wrong. Bus arrived and different people were now sitting on the blue chairs. Different people, but same feeling: she inquisitively analyzed each person, no smile, no alive expression on any face.

10:40 A.M.
She is rapidly walking on the alley on the way to the office. Same 3 black cats sleeping one on each other under the tree. She tells herself everyday that she has to take a picture, nobody would believe her...so funny. Sometimes only two of them lay on each other and the other one walking around. Trees weren't blossomed last Friday, now it was all white and pink and distinct scent was in the air

10:45 -20:45
Long day working...Every day seems to be more challenging, and she enjoys it. It started as it has to, with a coffee in the big funny yellow cup. For her coffee has no sense without an appropriate cup. The end of the day was nothing interesting and cheerful, she was tired and started to rain. Of course she didn't bring an umbrella...the sun was shining in the morning!And then..again, she has to take the dead, sad #43 bus to home.

20:50
She was sitting in the bus next to a really "cool" guy...Around 25 and his"cool' friend on another chair. Quite crowded for that hour. Some people going home from work, some trying to find their bus after "celebrating" Easter with a little to much alcohol and some others that are in that bus every single day, just like her. She would almost say hello to those familiar faces, but their bitter sadness don't even let them look at you. No hellos, so smiles. Nothing different this day. Until the fist bus stop...

The only thing that could grab her attention from looking on the window: a baby! People would think she's crazy with her "small obsession" on the little creatures. From that second her eyes were on his and his mothers hand on him. Just fascinated...As usual. The baby started to cry and prattle, but not really making to much noise. He was really little and had only a few months, you couldn't really see just some small cloths and a big mouth crying. Then the girl notices the guy next to her talking to his friend and laughing. They were just analyzing the baby and smiling... They stopped being "cool"!!!...Unbelievable.

In 2 minutes everybody's attention was on the baby and bus wasn't dead anymore. The sad and bitter people were smiling! Every single one of them! How can a 4 kgs of fresh life do this??

Nothing else matters what happened that evening. She was confirmed: you're not really crazy being fascinated by such powerful thing...

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

"Necessity is the mother of invention. The father is unknown."

Dear Whoever may read this,

If you ever wondered if humanity will ever get bored so bad that they won't know what else to invent...well the answer is NO! They are bored but they know what to invent.

Here is a funny site with useless, stupid inventions.

Nothing more to add...


Thursday, April 13, 2006

Can't run too far from the calling...

Today I had my first meeting with the sales team in AIESEC and I received some accounts. I am really confident and very excited that FINNALY it is happening. I will have my first business meetings next week trying to sell really relevant products to companies.

I've beeen for one year and a half in this organisation and in the first year I chose not to be part in the selling team because of reasons like..."I don't have the time", "I've already been there", "I want to try something else", a bunch of excuses of course although people arround me were telling me I'm crazy [I can already see their smug smile on their face reading this :) ] Well it seems I wanted to see for myself that you can't really run away from what you are, from what your desire and calling is. Of course I can be wrong and I don't have any skills in this field at all...we will see.

I will keep you posted if I maneged to sell exchange program, product on Sustainable Development or any other AIESEC product. Take a deep breath

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

"I miss my best friend"

This post was about to be born many times in the past month. I believe that each of us had this question in their mind at some point in their life: "Do I really have FRIENDS?". How can you really tell? How can you measure it? OR do you have to feel it and then it is right? Do all the parties need to have the same definition of friendship? OR we just call some people my friend/my best friend because we fear to be lonely?

I delayed writing this, saying that I feel sad because of the spring, that it will go away...and that I don't really agree with Zeno's point about people and friends, that is only my impression that I only give and receive nothing back; but today I strongly feel far away from all of those people that once I called my best friends. These "feelings" are here since January, but I just hoped I was wrong...and I still hope this; but then I was shocked reading Geani's blog and feel seing myself in every word in the "Fog" post. I will take the liberty and write here the exact words I am talking about: "And sometimes there are a lot of dear souls around you and you keep giving them energy and light, but there is no one to help you get rid of the fog in your own soul…you feel tired also and clouds are traveling across your eyes. And all around you are only other souls in need, or souls that have light but don’t want to share it."

I have taken the "hard" way and each time it ends the same. People CHANGE. Maybe this is the reason why you have one best friend in highschool, one in University, one when you become the mature person, during your failed marriage and wonderful career ans so on. Of course we also change, so we cannot expect something else from our friends...and you cannot expect from your best friend to act the same with you after he got married. I am just extremmely dissapointed that things change and you loose your best friends on the way. It is a pitty you cannot have them with you in your best moments of life and express the true feelings. Why can't it be for the entire life?

As like everything seems to be related to this lately, I received a mail with an article, exactly called "Mi-e dor de prietenul meu cel mai bun" [I miss my best friend] - sorry it is in romanian. It is somebody's story about best friends during her life until now and how they have changed. I can see myself so much already there, because I already miss my best friend...whoever that is...wherever he/she is

I feel I am loosing more than just one friend in this times...every single day one part we've work until now; and I wish that we were strangers, meet again and we could start again.

A few words too many...